This post should not be called “Why I Write” but for some reason “Why I Post” or “Why I Blog” or “Why Do I Suddenly Care about Character Development and Internal Logic” don’t resonate quite the same way within the context of Skyrim. In any case, you should just go ahead and start reading this in Vladimir Kulich’s voice.
First, an aneccote. One evening I was
backseat drivingwatching my husband’s Skyrim game. He went to the Skyforge and when Eorlund Grey Mane said, “Gods be praised!” he turned to me and said, “I always imagine that no one comes to see him and he’s really lonely. That’s why he’s so excited to see me.” I looked at my husband who had, to this point, been playfully teasing me about the fact that I’d been quietly writing an Epic Skyrim story, sharing only snippets with a couple of close friends, and said, “You DO understand. Now, imagine if you could never stop thinking about these people. ”
The reason I write is simple. If I don’t write, this stuff just spins around in my head, begging to be released. But writing is not the same as telling a story and while I’ve been writing about Elspeth since November 2011, I did not start telling her story until sometime in April when, inspired and encouraged by my friend Erica North, I decided to force what I had written into the Elder Scrolls canon to see what would happen. I started the blog thinking that Erica and maybe my Skyrim-playing cousin would be the only ones who would read it. I did not expect that anyone else would pay attention.
Then suddenly, I have people besides Erica commenting. And Dovahkiir started asking for updates on her Tumblr. Other writers, like Pyrelle, are putting Elspeth-inspired Easter eggs in their stories. And Elspeth was included in Spice Monster’s wonderful picture of Dragonborns on the Town. There aren’t enough words to describe how happy it made me to see Elspeth included in other Skyrim worlds. Or listed on blog rolls.
If this were just about writing, I would just write. However, this post is not about writing. This post is about blogging and my sudden need for my characters to be compelling and for my story make sense to someone other than myself. And for that reason, this post is about you, my dear readers. The reason I post is simple. I post because of you. Because of your comments and likes. Knowing that there are some people out there who look forward to what I have to say is the reason I keep doing this.
I once told Erica that her nod to my story in the Epilogue* to The Dragonborn Chronicles would see me to the very end. That has expanded to include each and every one of you who keep coming back for more.
*Don’t look at this unless you’ve read her trilogy.